Stranded in Suriname

Hey Lil, N8 the Gr8 No H8 without Hesit8tion here,

So, that was a tribal council.

1. How do you feel about David going?
2. How do you think the PII changes the game?
3. What do you think is going to happen going forward?

fucking marissa

Marissa wrote:Honey it makes no fucking sense. Everyone in this game is playing for themselves. I voted Kimmi on the first vote but if I'm being honest I got afraid people weren't going to stick on Kimmi and I wasn't going to be rocks again so I flipped. I'm sorry. but seriously this was a disaster.

Liliana wrote:there was an odd number of people...

Actual confessional later. I just needed to post this. I'm dying over here lol

And now she just logged off. Holy shit this is great

So I learned a lot about myself last night.

1. I become kind of insane and extremely paranoid when I get any sort of power whatsoever
2. I literally cannot stop myself from calling out bitches in public
3. I'm a very emotional player

So, quick rundown.. against my wishes, an alliance of 7 I created (Me, Kelly, David, Flicka, Artis, Sugar, Mookie) decide to split the votes between Sophie and Kimmi. I would've preferred to just stacked on Kimmi, and looking back I really should've tried to convince those guys to do so. Like oh my god. We literally just watched Stephen Fishbach get voted out for trying to split the votes. We can't do this with 13 people. It won't work. Guys pls. So I split us up: Artis, David, Flicka, and Kelly on Sophie; Me, Mookie, Shane (for kelly claimed he'd vote with us), and Sugar on Kimmi. I didn't do it randomly, however. I was paranoid of Artis and Flicka flipping, so I put them both on Sophie who I thought was going to play the idol, and because it'd be easier to deduce who flipped if they're on the same person. I also told Gabe and Marissa to vote Kimmi. So then tribal comes, and Sophie gets 2 VOTES. In a 5-5-2-1 vote, Sophie gets 2 VOTES.

2 VOTES.

Flicka and Artis fucking flipped. Also, Kimmi SHOULD have gotten 6 but I knew Marissa or Shane was going to flip. Those 2 are snakes.

So I decide to call out those bitches in public by telling the truth and saying "Flicka and Artis flipped." Surprisingly, no one reacts to it at all. I then start arguing with Shane about butts. I was tired. It was a difficult night. I didn't know what I was talking about. It's all just a foggy haze to me now... but yea. Apparently people thought I was some sort of she Hitler and at the end of the night, David was sent home when 8 people voted for him (including Kimmi.) That was the fucking tipping point. I was so angry at everything. I knew we shouldn't have split. I knew they were going to flip. How was I so stupid. I didn't care if I was next, these games fucking suck anyway way too much stress. So I decided that the best decision for me was to fall asleep.

Today has been interesting. I've started working with Sophie. After last night, I realized if I'm gone, she's going to be right after me and vice versa. So I sucked up all of my anger for her and we started working together because we're both the biggest threats in the game. It's sooooo stupid. Like I don't think we even like or trust each other, but circumstances have forced us to align. It's like when you take two magnets and force the alike ends together, we would usually repel but an outside force is causing us to touch.

Mookie, Sugar, and Gabe are the 3 people I trust the most, and I'm going to try to create a sense when I'm talking to those 3 that they also should trust each other the most. A group of 4 could be powerful in this game.

Here's the people that I'm pissed at right now:
Shane (HAHAHAH I CUSS AT HOSTS SO FUNNY GUYS XDDDD | Liliana is LITERALLY a MOB BOSS she will kill us ALL | WAKE UP SHEEPLE | Camp threads are the only way to talk to people.)

Marissa ( ohohohoh i didn't want to go to rocks even though there's an odd number of people | gabe and liliana you are LITERALLY my number one ignore the fact I don't vote with you )

Jenna (...how 2 talk??)

Artis (Now Liliana calm down. I didn't flip on you. I swear I didn't. It was David. It wasn't me | cmere kiddies into the big white van i have candy ;))) )

Kimmi (Wow. Fuck you. Who gives a fuck that I voted for you. You shouldn't have voted for me. | i trusted ozzy more than you because i knew him for 3 days longer. )

1. How do you feel about David going?

Daaaavid ;___;
He was one of my closest allies and would always vote with me. It sucks. I miss him already.. Also the fact that he's gone means that Kimmi stays in the game.

2. How do you think the PII changes the game?

It stopped Sophie from getting voted out, and it actually gave her a chance to stay in the game. Other than that, not much.

3. What do you think is going to happen going forward?

I have no clue. And that's why this is one of the best ORGs I've ever done.

Also that fucking maze. I was literally uploading it to imgur and I had the link copied and I refreshed and BAM! Kelly had posted it literally 10 seconds before. I seriously considered suicide.

So I'm trying to get votes on Artis, because he flipped on us. I have Sugar and Mookie. I think I have Sophie, Kelly, Jenna, Gabe, and maybe Kimmi? I don't know. I'm scared. I think it's going to be me or him tonight and I really don't want to leave in 12th place.

I'm trying to get others thinking it's still me vs. Sophie but it's hard. This is so hard. There's just so many people and it's so frustrating and I just want to vote now

Hey, can one of you hosts please give me the imgur link for the HII i used? I kind of lost it and I need it back.
I hope you're allowed to.

So I'm like really kind of desperate right now and I'm on mobile so I'm just messaging everyone who might have a slight chance of voting with me tonight.

I just want to say, I don't know what I've done to make Shane so bitterly go after me. I don't know what I've done to make myself look like a threat. Hell, I've voted in the minority more often than the majority. If you're voting me off because I got kind of freaked out (well more than kind of) last night, that's just kind of silly. I'm just a really emotional player, and I apologize if I made any of you uncomfortable. I just think that while some of you may perceive me as a threat, aren't the real threats the one that'll last to the end? The UTR people that'll sail through all the blindsides and get the win?

I've told all of you I'm voting for Artis. I'm not going to. Shane has been incredibly rude to me and if I do survive today, I don't want to be with him still. I'm voting for Shane tonight. All i ask is for you to vote off someone that has been vile to people rather than someone who had a freakout at tribal council. Again, I really apologize if I upset any of you. But please... just vote off Shane with me. I don't want to scheme or lie to any of you. Please vote Shane.

My hail mary. I think I'm fucked.

Gabriel apparently is voting me. I'm so nervous.

How could I have let this all go to waste. How did I go from having no power to having a lot to being voted out in 12th. How can Shane be such an evil and vile person. I'm going to miss Sugar. Really the sweetest and I believe the most genuine one here. Please do well, girl.

I'm excited to meet David in Ponderosa.

Kelly said she wouldn't vote for Shane because she made a "promise" and she'd throw her vote away. I asked her to break it if it came down to a tie and she said "I will, good luck though! I'm rooting for you."

If you were "rooting" for me you'd vote with me. This game is so depressing. I've gone from having lots of allies and being in a good spot to literally everyone turning on me. I don't know what I did and I just feel so confused and betrayed right now and I don't know whether to break down crying because a couple fucking idiots ruined my second chance or break out cheering because I don't need to be around these disgusting people anymore.

This will be my last ORG for a few months, I think. It takes up so much time and you build so many personal connections and then it all comes crashing down and leaves you buried in the rubble of broken dreams and lost friends.

I have literally no idea what the idol is. I need it, and it's so frustrating because I can't get it. Ughh.

<3 stay strong girl!

so close to winning immunity... oh my god. i might actually do this

Never mind. Ponderosa, here I come.