- Thu Dec 03, 2015 2:31:05 am
#5581
did that vote go as you were expecting? if not, why do you think it didn't?no.... and it's because no one will be honest with their emotions! there are people that i have GREAT connections with and would function as amazing allies if they would give as much back as i give into them... kelly didnt vote with me last night. or the night before. artis didnt vote last night... or something like that.
votes aren't going as i'm expecting because i don't have a good grasp on this game.
im not gonna answer any more questions im just gonna type out a confessional
it will be short but cest la vieeeee
right now im in a position where.... im not sure where i lay on people's radars or in the spectrum of the game. i think im someone that's well liked by everyone... for the most part, and also someone that isnt too much of a question mark. i think that i tell enough people who im voting for each night that my vote normally isnt unaccounted for... the way that so many other's have been this season... ESPECIALLY this merge.
i get along great with a few people left in this game. kelly. sophie. kimmi. artis.
and surprisingly, jenna. i havent talked game with jenna... nearly at all. and i dont think shes interested in working with me. but we do get along well and i think we're both mutually invested in not voting for each other. i mean.... if someone suggested her for the vote tonight, i guess i WOULD vote for her, but i wouldnt like to. and i think that's how she feels towards me
i think that sophie is going to go tonight if she doesnt play her idol. i dont know what to do with that in mind. im not going to be voting for sophie because we have a mutual agreement we wont do that to each other.... but i will gladly throw a vote on shane or flicka or something like that to leave me with being content with the person that left (because Sophie IS a huge threat and is something i'm going to have to experience leaving if i think i have a shot at winning this game)
but no... im not worrying about the jury yet. should i? maybe. but i think the jury's opinion relies on who is active in ponderosa... who has what to reveal, and whatever. there are so many question marks in that... that i dont think its safe to play in a way where you can determine that. you just need to think of who you think you have played a stronger game then... and stick with them.
but i dont know im going to win this game or if im going home tonight. im always uneasy going into tribal council and i seem to always have a sneaking suspicion that im leaving... which i also have tonight. i need to try to separate superstition from this game but there are a few things that i also always attribute to the times that either i... dont vote in the majority or DO vote in the majority. and one of those things is.. ive been the last post on each of the immunity challenges since the merge. is that some kind of divine energy trying to symbolize that i will be the last one standing at the end of this game? i am the last to post so... i will be the last one standing? either way, i think im always gonna try to get the last word in so i dont risk me dissing the divine energy trying to show me such a quirky little symbol
